When did my mourning start? I’ve got a mourning heart.
When is morning coming? For I’m scorned. I’ve been torn apart.

God help me! The only thing I could say.
The vicious locust are approaching wont you keep ‘em away?
I’m getting weaker today with my knees giving way.
The only thing that I can do is weep, and seek Him and pray.

So I did and asked God for the strength to live.
And could He please help the kid forgive.

And give back my joy
Cuz these attacks deployed... against me

Simply made my passion pour from my eyes
As I cry in my ride, my only place to hide
So I up and dry my eyes

And drive to Bible study with a mind that’s muddy
Feeling I can’t lead nobody.

Nobody can know the pain I’m bearing
like a weight I’m wearin.

I’m hearing Jason Upton feeling
Like I’m chasing something.
Struggle in this race I’m running.
Jesus wasn’t slain for nothing.


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I’ll repay you. I’ll repay you.
I’ll repay. I’ll repay. I’ll repay you for what the locust have stolen away.

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I’m hurting more than I could possibly say
Upon an album. I pray
That ya’ll could hear me though my rapping is vague
About the pain... that I be in in the present

Cuz I’m in need of a blessing.
I cannot tell you why I feel like a mess in my life. It’s confidential.

I can’t speak openly of my grief.
I can’t tell you why I’m feeling so weak.

I hope that you could understand I really wish that I could
Spill my guts and you could listen like good listeners should.

But listen this is probably all for the best.
I get this off of my chest

But not specifically so ya’ll could inject your own pain into the lyrics I write.
You’re eyes are tearing at night
But you don’t think that He’s been hearing you cry. But He does.

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I’ll repay you. I’ll repay you.
I’ll repay. I’ll repay. I’ll repay you for what the locust have stolen away.

He’ll repay. He’ll repay. He’ll repay. He’ll repay.

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You told me you would give me back what locust had stolen
But God I want You to know it’s hard to give You control.

It’s hard for me to believe
And hard for me to concede
That You could ever actually be healing all of my grief.
But I’ma fall at your feet
Cuz I acknowledge I’m weak
And I acknowledge that your knowledge is too far to be reached.

But Jesus now you’ve got to harness us.
Trusting You is hard for us.
Only You could see the picture fully like an artist does.

Yeah, You’re marvelous.
You’re healing every part of us.
You healed us when You yielded to the Father.
You were marred for us.

Now to Your promises I’m clinging ‘till my knuckles white.
I know I’m in my toughest fight
Trusting You to crush the night.
Mustn’t hide.
Trust and fight.
Trusting that You love us Christ.
Bust inside my busted life,
And dust it off and make it right.

You’re bringing good from what they meant for evil.
You’re the real life Christ. Not Jim Caviezel.

Plus, You’re the God who’s making all things new
For your kids so I’m a turn to You and turn from my sins.

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I’ll repay you. I’ll repay you.
I’ll repay. I’ll repay. I’ll repay you for what the locust have stolen away.

I’ll repay you. I’ll repay you.
I’ll repay. I’ll repay. I’ll repay you for what the locust have stolen away.